Saturday, June 18

Hello :)

Hi Everyone,

Thanks for still being here when I decided to come back from my journey to hell! (read as final weeks of uni semester). It was a really hard slog this half-year, mostly because I have lost all sense of discipline and self control when it comes to computer time. I don't know why its so hard to switch off the computer/log out of facebook/turn off the tv and actually DO SOMETHING. I've been speaking to my crafty friends about this too and a lot of them are having the same problem as I am. I achieve nothing, feel guilty/crappy about it, and gain a sore neck and back from it... so why is it so appealing to me?

One of the reasons is that I've trained my mind into a cycle of distraction. I literally and honestly cant concentrate on one thing for more than 10 minutes now without getting antsy and wanting to do something else - be it checking facebook, google reader or making a cup of tea (for those that don't know, I drink about 7 cups a day). And by not pushing through and forcing myself to do the task at hand, I reinforce the behavior and so it goes on...

So I've decided to take action. I'm making a commitment. I'm taking a small first step, because then it wont seem so overwhelming. I WILL SUCCEED at this small step, and in doing so, will give myself the endorphin rush of actually DOING something for once.

And that small step was this post. Because I've been meaning to get back into blogging since the 6th, and I've finally managed on the 18th. And you know what? I feel great at having written the longest post I've EVER written. It is a self-absorbed rant on an uninteresting subject, on a blog which I have purposely kept from being any deeper than a puddle. But its going to lead to better things, more interesting content in the future, and an enthusiasm for getting off my butt and ACHIEVING. And I'm super excited about it.

Oh, and one more thing. I'd like you to join me on your blogs (yes, the ones you've been neglecting!), your facebooks, or your twitter. Write a post on something you've been putting off. And then I want you to DO IT. You know why? Cause it feels super :)

While I'm here, I'm going to commit to my next procrastination job. I'm going to go measure up my Dads spare living space for a mezzanine addition. Right now.

Seeya :)

3 comments:

GetSilvered said...

Welcome back! Well done :)

Kate Campbell said...

Despite your self deprecating words, this is a good post. It's thoughtful and insightful and it's something we can all relate to. I am also studying and I find the same problem at times, so I try to decide before I sit at the computer that it is a work day and no blogs (especially cute craft ones) will be opened. Then I sit down and decide it's a fun day and I have fun, like now.
It's really hard though and it's nice when you know other people struggle with the juggle - as I call it.

Thanks.

OSIER said...

thanks guys :) xx